I just want Gregg to come home. I miss him and I’m always worried, and I’m so incredibly nervous that he’s going to fall for one of the girls on his trip, and then when he gets back it’ll be over between us.
I keep replaying these scenarios in my head and it’s killing me, because I think I might actually be falling in love with him, and in my experience, guys don’t see me as something worth sticking around too long for.
I’d like to think it’s different with him, and he’s given me no reason not too, but I’m still so scared.
I just wish that I was prettier, more talented, funnier, just all around more appealing, that way I wouldn’t be so worried that he’ll throw me over for another girl.
But it’s happened to me so many times, it’s impossible for me to not consider it as something that could happen.
It’s probably stupid for me to think this way, but I care about him more than any other guy I’ve encountered.
I just hope he feels the same way about me.